She said i've done nothing wring therefore i shouldn't call Adam, text him, nothing until he txts me. 
But i'm not like that. 
I can't be bothered with the friction and stuff. So i just text him and try and make things ok.
I generally end up backing down for the peace. 
'Just polish that sign on your head...' - Mum
In other words, i'm a complete mug. 
Part of me agrees. The part of me that was independent and didn't take shit off boys and did what i wanted to do. The part that gets scared when Adam gets mad, when he talks to me like i'm a piece of crap and i feel the lack of love in his voice. 
The other part thinks 'Mum, u treat ur fella like dirt, and your in the middle of a divorce'. Maybe being less dominatrix-like may work. 
'Then let him walk all over you. It's your call' - Mum
Do i take it coz i don't want to be alone? 
Or do i stand up and risk him backing off and losing him?
 

No comments:
Post a Comment